Dear my friend
Long time no see! How's it going up there? Can you see me there? is it true that heaven is in up there? Are you there right now? haha so many questions, right? But I know that you won't answer those questions, because probably God told you that you have to keep those secrets. Then ok, I won't ask them anymore, so just let's move on.
I don't know, probably I just miss you right now. Because we've never met since that day, the day that you left all of us. I wish I can tell you everything, about what happened last year, which was a really crazy year for me. About that scary national exam, and about where I continue my study right now. Probably you'll just say " I told you Tissa, don't study too hard, look! you don't even get a place in state university" and I'll be like "Biarlah, at least I've tried!". I wish it can really happen. I really wanna tell you that iPhone 7 has launched and finally Resident Evil final chapter has been out, remember you said that you'll watch that movie with me and our friends together?.
And one more thing, I really wanna tell you about that day, when I wasn't even able to cry when I refused to saw you for the last time. I remember saw your girlfriend that day, she was suffering, and your mom, she looked so sad because you've gone. But I, I was just so confused at that time. I was upset with you, why you have to go so fast?! You didn't even graduate yet. You said you want to be a cop, you've even prepared everything, then you are just gone, what do you mean? are you an idiot or something?!
But then I just realize, it wasn't even your fault. It was just... my theory is wrong as f. I thought people will go when they have nothing to do in this world anymore, when all of their businesses are done and when they don't have any kind of responsibility in this world. But I was totally wrong, people will go wherever God tells them it's time to go home. Even tho they still have something to do in their life, and that is scaring me like hell! But the bright side is, starting from that day, I know how priceless the time that I have, and I promise to myself that I'll never waste it anymore!
your friend,
Tissa
Note: I know the fact that he surly will never read this letter, but I don't care I just miss him so bad!
If you see something ungrammatical from this letter, i'm sorry, I'm still learning it.
